A dream come true.

This was my blog post a week before leaving for Cebu.

PASINAYA Festival 2012.

“I have to be there,” I told myself.

I took a ferry on my way home because Sir Hobart gave us a call for rehearsal.

I was welcomed by a big poster hanging at the XU wall of fame.

Of course, we can’t resist but have our pics taken underneath it.

I arrived on time and I catched my friends fixing the production set.

I paused in front of the theater mirror and took a shot of myself.

After rehearsal, I joined them as they rehearse for the latest production, “Ang Tatlong Mariya”

with my favorite girls

Sandre and Sheena memorizing scripts with me and my cappuccino.

Then, I went back to Ubec again.

Days passed.

February 25, 2012

I went to Mactan Airport at 2am after hanging out with Sis Mandy(who was in Ubec for a tour)

I met a cutie named JM from bacolod and took a cab to the airport after getting my things.

Manila.

As written in my journal:

” Here I am , waiting for my flight to Manila.
Unbelievably true.
i will be acting at CCP.
This was my dream.
I’ve always wanted trips and doing something great.
Manila.
CCP Complex.
it’s so good to be true.
It is. “

this bag took me places already.

I took my journal and wrote again.

” After an hour of sleep, I’m finally here ———> MANILA
drinking a hot cup of cappuccino and seated next to a korean cutie.
Imma wait for my co-TXS who took my cdeo 5am flight.
It’s my 1st time to be here and I’m just so excited.
My Papa’s right.
They need not to spend for me to be here.
I’m able to step into this island because of my own talent.
UdaOne’s playing on the background and I’m just so happy to be here.
This is the kind of life I wanted ever since.
The moment we step out of NAIA, my life will never be the same again. “

I waited for 3 hours.

My life was never the same again.

To be continued.

xoxo

The dream.

When I was in my 1st year in college, I saw Kevin Soriano act for the production, “Ang Kuripot.”

He’s such a good actor.

From then on, I have dreamt of being part of the centerstage, saying lines and making a face.

This year , I had the chance to join a theater club in XU, The Xavier Stage Company.

The 1st production, “Ulilang Tahanan” already had casts so I have no other role than to be part of the production team.

In fact, I was the 1st one.

Kevin was my 1st friend for my 1st day in the company.

It wasn’t fate.

After the week-long run, we had a summer workshop.

It was just a 3-day workshop.

Our artistic director, Mr. Hobart savior decided to have a laboratory production to check if we really learned acting techniques from the workshop.

Thus, “Dalawang Komedya”

It was a twin bill production ‘New Yorker in Burgos’

and ‘Wanted: a chaperone.”

I never expected that I have the thing for acting.

I acted as ‘Nena’ for NY in Burgos.

The theater company taught me so many things in life-love,friendship,trust,and life.

Months after that production, I was given a task i never thought I’d ever have and be able to accomplish.

I remember my cousin,Ate Sigrid,telling me that a Stage manager can never be an actor at the same time.

It’s a very stressful task.

I was.

I was the SM for the 3rd production, “Barracks ni Tinyente Fuego.”

That marvelous feeling when you are working behind the curtains.

The joy of seeing the faces of very entertained audiences, taking care of the artists,and leading people to love the job- theater, that is.

I made rules, and I felt very accomplished.

At the same time, I also acted as ‘Pokie’ in one of the play dates where my friends, Kris and Sandre, play the same role.

All my days were spent on rehearsals, rehearsals,rehearsal, and there’s one more- rehearsal.

Yes.

Theater life’s so demanding.

However, I found my happiness inside the gloomy dim-lighted theater.

I have theater friends that I spend most of my time.

Friends that I am so proud of having.

Who’d thought I’d end up eating cupcakes and having lunch dates with Kevin.

Hey!

I did not join because I simply like him. It’s just that, I never had the thought that I’d be somewhere near his higness( ahm,I mean the talent in acting) and friends circle.

Theater,my colorful life.

I can still remember singing “oombap’ before going to school.

I used to be their number 1 fan.

I still am.

I went to Ayala to purchase tickets for the concert but I realized that SM’s on sale.

I’d rather use the money to buy shoes than to watch the 3 boys sing from afar(bronze left available).

I went to SM,watched IMAX Wrath of the Titans and went to Forever21 (always been my favorite store since day 1 here in Cebu).

There was chaos.

Then, I remebered that the Hansons are droppin’ by the mall for the meet and greet/ CD signing session.

Yes. oh yes.

I saw them in front of me.

It was like a dream come true.

I felt my entire body went numb when Zac flipped his hair when he spoke.

What a feeling.

Admit it,we swoon guys with ‘butterfly’ hairstyles during the 90s.

I still do,okay?!

Anyway, I spent my money wisely and I got the chance to see them in person.

What a treat.

If One Direction’ll have a concert here in UBEC, I’d totally get the front row ticket.

Besides, i live next to Waterfront. Getting the VIP access is not going to be that hard.

Oh golly.

I’m crossing my fingers.

I used to host concerts for local artists before.

I wanna do Hollywood this time.

The next blog post: me and harry smiling for the cam and his arms around me.

Thank you March 31st.

xoxo

I woke up at 3pm and hurried to SM to get tickets for HG.
I was with my friend,Flor.
While waiting for the 5:15 run, we took pics outside the cinema and made a pretend that we are tributes too.

We watched the crowd cheering for us.

then, I paused and laughed.

This is just a poster.

.LOL. I liked the adaptation.

Now showing.

Credits rolled.

Then,the theater closed.

We have to wait for the next book.

Part 1 of the adaptation’s really nice.

2 thumbs up!

If given a gift or any object, I never tried returning.

Just now.

A box would give thrill and expectations.

I love surprises but small and ordinary things are enough for an average girl like me.

With every spark of magnificence and beauty,there’s always a darker part that hides beneath.

I told my parents everything.

It’s my first time to share about my lovelife -it wasn’t even something like that.

Casual dating.

I don’t want to be rude and directly throw such pictures in the trash. I want to keep a remembrance of cute memories that happened before I decided to be in Cebu.

Meet Paulo.

He’s my cousin’s friend.
He liked me,that’s always the trigger.
I just dated him because my cousin asked me to go out with his friends and I was pretty disturbed during those days.

Post-heartbreak syndrome.

I don’t want to spell out the details anymore.

Yes,we just dated.

He wasn’t alone.

I had 3 or 4.

me and my co-DJs Sab and Mandy made a pact that we’ll never take guys seriously,as of the moment.

Thus, the plural form of dating.

DATE 1

I just liked the idea of dating someone.

DATE 2

I like him but I only have a turn-on with guys who speak the same tongue.

Someone smart,witty,and of course pretty cool.

It was still nothing but a thought of having a passing fancy.

DATE 3

(I have deleted all pics of this date and this one was saved )

Leaving CdeO, I have to close every issue and any close bond I have with someone so that I won’t get clingy or miss something from home.

He insisted.

I said yes and on the safe side.

“Sweet but crap,”

I admit I fell for the cute and happy side of the story but my disbelief in fairytale endings would always bring me to the real world.

I ended everything and told him that it’s never going to work.

Yes. It is sweet to talk to someone everytime,updating each other of whatsoever and sharing stories but I know that it would always end to the same thing over and over again- end.

I’ll be gone for a very long time and I don’t believe in ‘long-distance-rel’ crap.

So, why waste time into something that would never last?

I gave up.

I was at Ayala Terraces, Starbucks 3pm February 14,2012,
wearing the very thing that made me reflect to give myself a chance.

I called.

I had to wait for 10 hours before we can finally talk.

Only to find out that I was never alone in playing the game.

We both did.

He cheated.

He had a girlfriend.

All this time he and his friends did not tell me of the real score( well, I did not ask though) and I was too blind to date him.

All I know is that they broke up even before we met.

He was on the brink of choosing me but I pushed him off the well.

Worst part, she ain’t even that pretty.

Ergo,the frog princess.

It doesn’t hurt.

My ego’s just crushed.

I went home and wanted to talk to him in person but he never had the courage to face me.

Pussy.

Oh well,it’s over.

I’m still me.

I may have cried a bit but I won the battle.

He may claim victory for the war that we had but i did not lose a thing,he did.

That’s me.

I’m allergic to boys.

When I left cdeO,I made sure that I’ll leave with totally nothing(from him )at all.

I asked my friends to return everything he gave me except for the little cash credit I’ve asked from him. Well, he actually volunteered for help that time.

I used the money to buy my friend a birthday gift.

I can easily pay it now but I won’t.

Why?

I’ll be home by June for school.

I still have to see him soon and make sure he’s gonna regret seeing me again.

No one messes up with Hearty.

I will.

Oh,wait. I’m not that mean.

On the contrary,with every dark side there will always be light.

As dawn breaks,it would remind me of how I traveled back to UBEC with a happier heart :)

xoxo